Life Must Go On

No matter what I feel now, life must run well
No matter what I did in the past, I'm forgetting now

Coz life must go on, whatever happens
It can't be stopped, although you want
It can't be repeated, although you hope

I don't care, whatever happen
I still have my thumb to show the world that I'll be fine no matter how hard life is..
I have my little thumb to make promise to my best friends to be here when I need them
Maybe life is hard now
But, Sun shines everyday
There is a hope for future..

Ie-th@
23.09
101111
In my lovely room

You Will Know WhenYou're a Mother

"Tidak" kata Ibuku ketika mau ikut program mengajar di Malaysia

"Tidak" lagi-lagi ketika ku ingin jalan-jalan ke Ngawi bareng Adek kosku

"Tidak" ah, semoga ini penolakan untuk yang terakhir kali ketika mau ikut program mengajar di luar pulau.

Ehmmm, so sad banget deh pokoknya kalau Ibuku sudah bilang "Tidak" karena kalau Ibuku sudah bilang tidak berarti Ayahku juga mengamini. Berbagai alasan pun di kemukakan mulai dari A, B, C, D atau apalah sampai terus Z. Takut hilang lah, takut nggak balik lah. Hello, I have been an adult, and I really want to see this beautiful world. Alasan yang paling membuatku meradang adalah karena Ibu plus Ayahku hanya punya dua anak, aku dan adikku. So kalau terjadi apa-apa bagaimana. Hmm, sometimes I feel so lucky just having a sister. In the other hand, in different situation, I hate having just one sister. Maybe If have more than one sister will be ok to go to anywhere. Maybe but impossible. Karena faktanya, orang tuaku hanya punya dua anak, aku dan adikku. Jadilah, aku dilarang kemana-mana. Padahal, uhhhh pengen banget jalan-jalan. Apalagi sekarang aku sudah kerja. Buat apa lagi kalau punya uang, travelling is the best way of spending money.

Kupikir-pikir ternyata ada yang salah dengan strategi travellingku yang baru beberapa hari ini aku sadari. Seharusnya, sejak kuliah di semester pertama aku sudah harus merencanakan jalan-jalan. At least, aku bisa jalan-jalan dengan cara nginep di rumah teman-temanku yang beda kota. Selain aman, karena ada native guide, cara ini juga cukup jitu untuk menghemat biaya (Ah, gratisan memang paling asyik).Hehhe.

Selain itu kalau ingin jalan-jalan ke luar kota, masih juga aman karena dengan teman-teman sekampus jadi nggak mungkin khan kalau nggak diijinin. Kalau Ibu tanya tinggal bilang aja sama teman kampus, kalau masih tidak percaya ajak sang teman ke rumah. Hmmm benar-benar salah strategi. And I'm in miserable condition now, having a chance but not having permission. Huh. I wanna repeat what I did. But hello, it's impossible.

Ya udahlah, maybe next time ada kesempatan untuk jalan-jalan. Maybe not now. Just remember what my mother said to me a week ago " Kamu akan mengerti kekhawatiran seorang Ibu ketika kamu menjadi Ibu". Yes, maybe. She doesn't give permission not because she is mean but she loves and cares me. Love U Mom.

In the late of night
Spending my time of taking a rest to write
23.05
041111
Ie-th@

Do you lie or not?

Beberapa tahun yang lalu, sebelum aku berangkat ke kampus. Ada seorang wanita yang mengaku membutuhkan pekerjaan untuk biaya pulang ke Kediri. Dengan muka memelas dan patut dikasihani dia bilang “Saya butuh pekerjaan Mbak untuk pulang ke Kediri, apakah Mbak butuh pembantu rumah tangga?” tanyanya. Sayang, waktu itu aku dan keluarga tidak membutuhkan pembantu rumah tangga. Bukannya tidak butuh karena aku dan tentunya Ibuku sering mengeluh akan banyaknya pekerjaan yang ada d rumah tapi aku tidak suka ada orang asing di rumah. Entahlah, dari dulu aku tidak pernah suka ada orang asing yang notabenya bukan keluargaku tinggal di rumah. Jadi, aku dan Ibuku memutuskan untuk tidak menggunakan jasa pembantu rumah tangga.

Kembali ke wanita tadi, karena tidak membutuhkan pembantu dan melihat muka memelasnya aku memberikan sejumlah uang yang besarnya cukup untuk kembali ke Kediri. Setelah itu dia berjalan ke arah pasar. Akupun segera memacu motorku ke kampus. Dengan berbagai aktivitas kuliah dan organisasi di kampus aku pun melupakan kejadian itu. Beberapa waktu berselang setelah kejadian itu, tiba-tiba ada lagi orang datang di depan rumahku dengan modus serupa mengaku kehabisan uang untuk pergi ke kota anu. Waduh, tuing aku pun mengingat kejadian serupa beberapa waktu yang lalu. Entahlah, waktu itu aku sudah tidak bisa berprasangka baik lagi bahwa wanita itu memang benar-benar kehabisan uang. Aku pun hanya memberikan uang sekedarnya. Wajahnya pun aku sudah lupa. Akhirnya, dari pada aku pusing memikirkannya kubiarkan saja semua berlalu. Hah, yang penting niatnya, do you lie or not, who cares!

Yang tidak mau berpikir negative

Ie-th@

311011

PLEASE MOM, DON’T BREAK MY WINGS

Having you is the best thing that God gives to me. I say a big thanks to God to send you to me. A beautiful, nice, and care woman that I called “mother”. You know Mom I love you more than everything in this word. Seeing smile in your face is the greatest thing that I want to have it forever. When I was young, I obeyed what you said. You asked me to get the first rank, I studied hard to get it. I always do what you ask me to do.

Then, I grew older and older. Now I’m not a child or teenage anymore, I have been an adult. I think I have right to go where I want to go, I have right to do what I want to do. I really want to fulfill my life with my dreams, do what are in my dreams. I want you to support me. I want you to say “Go, and reach your dream. You know Mom, I want to go Australia, I want to get my master degree there. I want to go around Indonesia. I want to go traveling by plane, big ship, delman, becak, and bike. I want to go around the world. I want to enjoy my breakfast in Paris, enjoy my lunch in Thailand, and get my dinner in Egypt.

I just want you to say “Get spirit, don’t never give up. I really you want to say like that. I promise Mom, when I go I will save my self. I will keep my iman and ikhsan. I will keep my health. Let me go. I don’t want to be disappointed later. Please let me go. I star my dreams with going to some cities in east java. I want to enjoy my traveling. I know I have been so busy, but please Mom let me go. I want to see this wide world. I beg you Mom please, Don’t break my wings…..

October 2011

Ie-th@

KEEP MOVING FORWARD

Seeing the people in front of me, they manage their self well. They know everything about life. They know what they want to do, really good, keeping moving forward everytime and everywhere. I want to be like them who have high spirit to be succeed, very success. The first time what I do is knowing who I am, knowing my interest and my ability. Finally, I find my self in difficulties and without abilities. One ever says to me “As a human, we have to have many abilities in facing life, not only in one thing but also in the other things. As what I think, I haven’t got my abilities. May be the right words is I haven’t used all of my abilities. It is just a half or a quarter? or maybe not at all.

Comparing with many succeed friends, it is so far away. In facebook, *Follow my dreams* says “Don’t compare your self with other the best can you, but do what you can do. I agree that statement, it is right. But sometimes, we have to see the succeed people so we can know, what we have achieved. Have you written many targets every year? Me, my self write it every year. But sometimes, I realize what I wrote about my targets last year is as same with my target this year. We usually write what we want to achieve without take actions. We have a big dream, and we want to achieve it. Sometimes, we forget that to achieve a big dream, it should be started with a small step. Learning from a friend of mine, he always writes his targets and also the steps, how he achieve it. Small step everyday is quite better than just targets in a piece of paper. So now, I can say that between target and actions must be balanced.

Although there are so many target I haven’t achieved yet, but I still remember what I planed last years run well now. Why? because I have strong intention or azam (in Arabic language). It is supported with my ability in my major. Thanks God, it has been achieved nicely. It is not only useful for me but also my society. Being useful man to others is great. Giving contribution to others is amazing. I realize I just a man with strength and weaknesses. Life is just a show that will end, a human just a puppet who plays the show. Puppet can win or lose the show. Unfortunately, as a puppet, a man just have one section, there is no second or third section. And as a puppet of this life show, I must win, because being the winner is not a chance but a choice, we have to achieve it not waiting for it.

When waiting for my Father’s shop.

Gresik

191011

My Focus and Time Management

I have just read a blogger, a nice blogger written by a great girl. I don't know I really want to be like her. She has done things that I dream when I was teenage. Maybe, her achievement has been more than what I thought. A very amazing.

If I have an opportunity, I want to listen to her story about her life. It can be my reference to be better in my life. Maybe, it can courage my spirit that is always up and down, and up and down.

Back to my self. I admit that I'm not very good in focus and time management

I often not able to concentrate in a work or enjoy a situation. When I'm doing something, my mind will think about the other thing, a thing that I think better than what I'm doing in that time. And as the result, I am stressed because my works have not finished yet in deadline. Something it's really tiring. I can't read just one book. So when reading book, I will bring more than one book. Sometimes, I just read a half or a quarter of those books and put them on the table. Next, I will not read those books anymore. If I think that I need that book, I'll be back to that book. But it seldom happens.

Talking about my time management, that's the worst management in my life. I can't utilize my time. When I want to do something good but boring. I'll escape it. I will postpone until I forget the details of my work. Like this time, I'm trying to finish this writing but I read gossips in yahoo. How come!........

I think I need to refresh my mind. Then, I have to discipline my self to do better time management. I hope that it's not to late to be focus and on time

A person who is trying to be better

Ie-th@

Gresik 301011

I Will Forget

I will forget...

Teringang dalam pikiranku kata itu..
Sepertinya benar, I will forget....

That's my way, not in your way anymore

Just wanna say....GOOD BYE...